So when we started Ellie on Ketotifen last spring and she suddenly seemed so vibrant and healthy, Ian and I started to have hope. I had done a tremendous amount of work on my own health after being diagnosed with Hashimoto's that winter. I took natural supplements to support my thyroid. I did several cleanses. I was exercising regularly, sleeping well and had returned to a very healthy weight (after being too heavy for many years and then too thin while I was nursing Ellie on GAPS). I was in a really good place and so we took the leap. It goes to show how much my health had changed because it took us two years to conceive Ellie and this time it took just one try. We were elated!
And so on June 10 we had a son. August Wayne Denny was 8 pounds 4 ounces and 21.5 inches long. I fell so deeply in love with him the second I saw him.
We delivered Ellie in a hospital and were unhappy with that experience (to say the least). So this time around we took the leap of faith that a home birth would be a better choice. It was an amazing experience. I was able to labor at my own pace. I felt completely supported by my midwives, my husband and - maybe this will sound odd - by my home. The transition and pushing stages were the hardest thing I have ever done (I had an epidural with Ellie) but I came through to the other side feeling more powerful and having more ownership over the experience. August was born in the water.
Since his birth we've been through lots of ups and downs. Having a newborn is hard. Learning how to nurse again was hard. August had tongue tie - that was rough. Having to change my diet to deal with colic is hard. Having a baby who doesn't sleep at night, while also having a four-year-old who is awake during the day, is SUPER hard. Letting go of the fears we were carrying since Ellie's babyhood has been hard. But holding a sleeping newborn in my arms is bliss. Watching Ellie hug and kiss her brother (over and over and over again!) is amazing. Seeing my husband shush and bounce and rock our new baby is wonderful. Seeing August's first smiles made all the hard moments seem like nothing. We have been blessed - twice - with beautiful, vibrant children and as my Grandpa recently said, "what more can you ask for?"