Tuesday, September 13, 2011

New life in the kitchen

I’m not going to lie. Doing GAPS has seriously messed with my love of cooking. My love of food, even. Early GAPS was tremendously overwhelming. Not only was I dealing with a sick child and a very irritable self, I was constantly cooking. And I was cooking foods I wasn’t particularly enjoying. The amount of time I had to spend in the kitchen was really hard on Ellie. There were times she’d just stand in the kitchen and cry while I was too busy balancing three things on the stove and two more in the oven while chopping yet another thing – unable to pick her up or play with her. It wasn’t long before I was resentful of the diet and dreading my time spent in the kitchen.

This summer I acknowledged that the form of GAPS I was currently practicing was not working. While of course GAPS had done wonderful things to help heal Ellie, I also saw that it had created a major rift in my relationship with her, and I had to take a step back from the insane amount of work I was putting into preparing our food. Summer was such a gift. The bountiful produce available in summer became a lifesaver. We started making green smoothies for breakfast, which saved me so much time every morning. I started tossing hearty salads for lunches and dinners and finding time for Ellie again. Snacks are usually an apple with nut butter these days, which takes just a minute to peel, slice and present.

Friday, September 9, 2011

Gastroenterology Round II

Yesterday we went in to see a new GI. Even though we had a bad experience with Ellie's first gastroenterologist (who told me the reason Ellie was failing to thrive was because I was nursing her and if I would only feed her formula our problems would go away), I managed to work up some optimism that a new GI would be able to give us some answers.

Not so much.

While the new GI seemed like a great guy and was very positive about everything we've done to help Ellie so far, we did not leave feeling any clearer on what is going on. After we left, Ian said, "so, what did you think?" to which I replied, "I think I know more than that guy does!"